Tossed

Your words…

Now if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives to all generously and without criticizing, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith without doubting. For the doubter is like the surging sea, driven and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. An indecisive man is unstable in all his ways.  James 1:5-8

My words…

Praise
You are the only source of true wisdom, the wisdom that keeps me walking down the center of the path of righteousness. It is a perfect wisdom which encompasses every aspect of life no matter the period of history. It is ageless, unchanging, and precious. It is cool water on a hot day. It is the warm hug during grief. It is restful sleep during tribulation. It is resolution after query. It is order during chaos. Blessed is the one who is confident that true wisdom cannot be found in the stars, in fortune cookies, in newspaper columns, in crystal balls. Blessed am I who stands in the beam of Your enlightening wisdom.
Prayer for me
The surprising thing is not that You give generously to those who ask, it’s the fact that I don’t think to ask nearly enough. I’m like a starving woman who is too preoccupied to sit at the table and eat. The comfort that comes from knowing how to hold up under the weight of suffering or how to counsel my children or how to keep my spiritual balance in a shifting, tilting world should compel me to be in a constant state of wisdom request. There are times when I believe I’m pretty wise already, which is glittering proof of how foolish I truly am.
Forgive me
I should be at the point in my life when doubting in You should not be taking up words in my prayers. But here I am again, asking You to forgive my doubt. There are times when my spiritual armor is fastened on tightly, and my feet are firmly planted on the Rock. And then there are times when I am a wave being tossed and driven by the wind, wondering if You even hear my prayers and meditations. So weak am I. Forgive my spiritual instability.
Thank You
Thank You for sharing Your wisdom with me, an undeserving daughter. You never criticize my request although You have every right to. No. You just answer it. And Your generosity is a manifestation of Your love and goodness. For all of this I am humbly grateful.
More praise
There is no worldly wisdom which can compare. Holy, pure, generous, and loving is the One who offers it. Prudent, humble, and obedient is the one who claims it.